Prayer

I'm struggling to pray. What I mean is I'm not praying at all...of late. Now I join in the group prayers of others but I'm not asking God to give me strength for each day that I might walk in his will. Not moved by the needs of others so much as to want for them more than I can personally give and so to pray for the hand of God to touch them. How can this be? How much am I missing out on? How much is God longing for deeper communication with me? How much more of his kingdom goodness might be held up in heaven instead of on earth because I'm not praying? How much more glory could God be receiving? How much more joy could I be receiving?
Seriously, why is it so hard to walk consistently in the same direction with God. I'm like a baby that takes a few steps and then falls, feels sorry for itself, cries a bit and then tries to get back up by himself instead of walking hand in hand with the Father. Maybe the monks felt this same frustration and that's why they sheltered themselves so all they could think about was Him. Surely, I'm distracted by all the stuff the world has to offer, good and bad.
If you pray, pray that I would pray. God help me pray. Spirit of God change me more on the inside. Let the roots of my life be deep in the soil of Jesus so that I bear beautiful fruit.